Why So Serious?

“When anything is blocking my head or there’s worry in my life, I just go sit on mars or something and look back here at Earth. All you can see is this tiny speck. You don’t see the fear. You don’t see the pain, you don’t see thought. It just one solid peck. Then nothing really matters. It just doesn't”..

- Heath Ledger

Why so serious? I’m asking you Heath, why were you so serious? What made you to think to take all those prescription drugs together? Oxycodone, Hydrocodone, Alprazolam, Temazepam, Diazepam and Doxylamine. Didn’t you know that all those sedatives and analgesics could take your life? Did you take it purposefully, Heath? Did they tranquilize you? Doctors explained that, you died as the result of acute intoxication by an accidental mixture of prescription drugs. But I’m asking you Heath, Oh my favorite actor, ‘Was it accidentally’? I know how much u struggled to portrait the joker, in your words "psychopathic, mass murdering, schizophrenic clown with zero empathy."  To prepare for the Joker, you lived in a hotel room, embracing solitude for a month. You said the quote which I mentioned above. If you could remember those words, you would be still alive Heath. You gave your soul to those pills. Heath, do you know, I also want to die just like you. If I die, it would be intentional. I will choose the same way you did. Combined Drug Intoxication. I have both ways. But who am I? I’m just a paranoid parasite who lives in paradox. No one cares if I live or die. But who were you Heath? You were so special, weren't you? You were so gifted, talented. Heath, there were Cannabis, Mushrooms, LSD. A simple Passion flower could help you to calm your mind. But you chose all those pharmacological drugs. And they took your Life. Drugs can heal and drugs can kill. Death is a senseless clown. Not like the one you portrayed for The Dark Knight. Death could have spare you. We don’t know each other. Obviously not. But now I want to believe that we are psychologically same. I’m not doing a comparison. But this is my notion. As you said in The Dark Knight, it is a funny world we live in. I also don’t want to live in a funny world Heath. You can expect me soon. Let me finish some little works. We will be together then. I promise Heath. I promise.